Showing posts with label art. Show all posts
Showing posts with label art. Show all posts

Friday, August 9, 2013

Let nature do its thing


I've changed the background color and added the tattoo and dialed in some other details. I've changed my thought process on this a bit. He was going to be tattooing and he still could've but I'm going to add some keys hanging from the tree to kind of go along with the subject of the tattoo. This wasn't the original tattoo I was intending to paint on but found this one and just had a little revelation as to the woodpecker could look like he was unlocking or picking the lock.
Ever  evolving art. This happens with almost every piece in one way or another.

On a side note or kind of an update. I'm depressed.
I'd like to be here all happy, silly, sexed up and nude, but instead I'm depressed and I've been fighting this feeling of...." I can't feel this way" A sort of denial, I guess. But it is real and self destructive and I can't stop it. I feel heavy and tired and numb and just feel like each day that I'm lost. I've unfortunately been here before. This time it's been here for a while and I just didn't want to see it and have to face the facts that I'm here again.
I can put on the happy face and pretty much no one knows. I do that well. These last couple years have been intense for me. Maybe someone else could breeze through it unscathed, but it has taken me down to a low point.  I think the worst part is that I "thought" I had come to a peaceful place within myself and was proud that I found that. Then the last year and a half happened and now I am treading water hoping I can grasp something to pull me out of this hole.


Thursday, July 25, 2013

Another in the making


It's been a long time since I've been here. Life gets in the way. But thought I'd jump back on and share a piece that I'm currently working on. Still undecided on the title. Usually by now I have it dialed in. Suggestions are welcome.
And yes that is a woodpecker and he will be tattooing the back of her thigh.
Hope this finds eveyone healthy wealthy and wise.


Wednesday, May 29, 2013

90% done

I did the under painting as seen a couple posts down and now I'm glazing color on. I need a few more coats and wah la it will be ready for my next show in a week.
I'm going to try to squeeze in one more little tiny piece in before next week.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

The Art and the Party

This last week was full of Marriage Equality show openings for us in our art communities art colony and it all went well. Not as well as hoped selling art, but It was successful in bringing people out and them seeing the softer side of what maybe some don't quite get a grip on. The real side, the loving side of humanity and nonjudgmental. It opened some eyes and softened some hearts and raised some money for AIDS walk.

My piece did sell which was fortunate. But only for about half of the retail price because I put it up for silent auction and not that many people were bidding. I was one out of several that sold and that was fortunate. It's going to an awesome cause and I'm good with that.

I think that having an agenda art show such as this and the subject matter used in many different forms is really not a big seller. It's more getting a point across....if that makes sense. Most straight people(or at least not many) aren;t going to put gay art in their bedroom or over their couch. Not that it's wrong, just maybe not their genre.
Then the gay people which it is pointed at, well the work itself needs to speak to them. I know my love for art and not every gallery I go into, even if I appreciate the work isn't going to have me breaking out my wallet to spend several hundred or thousand dollars on a piece. It really has to speak to me.
A straight person bought my piece, but my piece is more a political statement and done in a subtle manner. So it had more opportunity to hit gay or straight. I didn't plan on it doing that, it just happened to be what I wanted to paint.

The openings left us 2 nights in a row with an after party at a local restaurant bar until 2am. I think I'm still recovering. LOL
Saturday night was interesting. There have been these two girls in the past months thatI know kind of ?They are fighting for my attention. I know that sounds funny . They are almost trying to one up each other, sexy dancing around and with me, dedicating karaoke songs to me, one even was biting my shoulders and neck, grabbing my boobs and it's all very surreal. (not complaining) I've never experienced this with anyone before! Hello I'm in a wheelchair and their are plenty of sex goddesses in their high heels and miniskirts around to choose me??! WTF? Of course it feels good and weird and, I'm going with it. LOL

It ended Saturday late night with sitting arrangement at the restaurant as this:
One of the girls Boyfriend ~ ME ~ Girl ~ Hubby    sitting in a row.
Girl started with her hand on my thigh moving it up and I did the same to her. ( I made eye contact with hubby showing him what she was doing, as we both smiled). She turned to me and being silly bit my lower lip. She then had her hand on Hubbies upper thigh and said in white girl wasted fashion "I'm rubbing his dick", I said "good," and I proceeded to put my hand on her boyfriends thigh.She whispers "he's hard" and starts rubbing away through hubbies jeans. At one point she tried to bite my lip again and I said "stop!", if you want to kiss me just do it, and she did. At that moment I kind of lost track of where I was and reality.( ihad 3-4 whiskeys) I'm in my little downtown and these aren't " lifestyle" people and about 30% of the people in this place know us. A girl friend of mine walked up at the crucial time and was a bit shocked, mouth dropped and she shook her finger at me like, no I didn't just see what I saw. (she also was a little tipsy)
It ended up in a drunken mess with the kissy grabby girl and nothing else happened, except just making sure everyone was getting home safely.

It was pretty fun and sexy. I'm kind of at a point anymore where I don't care if people see, but there is still a part of me that does care because most people wouldn't understand where we stand and what we've gone through to get to where we are. They would just dub us as swingers and that is pretty much not the case. The stigma behind that is not what we embrace. Not that its bad for others, but not where we see ourselves.

Friday, April 12, 2013

Tah Dah.

It's done. (I'm guessing around 85 hours put into it) It's submitted.
It's going up for silent auction. 
%50 goes to the cause and %50 goes to me.
Min. bid I started way lower than my normal pricing to get interest.
Who knows how it will go? It might not even sell. It's always up in the air with things like this. 
Show doesn't open until May. 
Its been on FB getting lots of love. It's been chosen by our local paper to promote the show.
It will be in print and on the racks this next Monday.
It's already gotten good response.
It feels good.

On to thinking about my next piece. I'm not going to bore you with the steps of that one though. I'm entering my colleges student show in the next week with some recent paintings and painting towards upcoming shows in June and in October. Hopefully I will find some others that I want to be involved in also. 

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Marriage Equality Painting Day 13


Yesterday I noodled around with the scenery. I  made it have contrast in the very closest seats to bring them forward. I added some values to the cake but not nearly enough yet. Today I will draw on the couple and get them started a bit and I still want to lighten those back side window panels. They bug me. Or at least get more highlights into them. Add reflected light of the green onto the cake.
So much to do, now so little time before it's turned in.


Friday, March 29, 2013

Marriage Equality Painting Day 12

Added some scenery to the windows and I'm kinda just medium about it. It will probably get changed. I taped a couple on top to show what it will look like. they will be smaller though. This whole process is just trying things and sometimes liking it and other times not. The beauty of oils is that you can always paint over it.
It's getting closer though to what I want out of it.

I've been wanting to share some feelings and for the longest while now. 
I can't get the gumption ( i guess the word is) to put them down. I don't know if I'm ignoring them or just cant make sense or afraid to write. I need to settle myself and get back to letting it flow. It's just not coming very naturally. That's why I bore you with these day to day updates on my painting.



Thursday, March 28, 2013

Marriage Equality Painting Day 11

Darkened the foreground and lightened the background. Got rid of the weird green on backside window panels and not really wild about that either.
My intention the whole time was to put a same sex couple a top the cake. (males) Someone mentioned that it wasn't needed and I kinda scoffed like yeah right. But now sitting with that thought for a while it seems like it actually would be ok. Basically just saying that everyone has a right to be married. Not labeling who. My issue is that it will leave the piece flat or missing something. I'm pondering it.
If you have any thoughts let me know.


Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Marriage Equality Painting Day 7

Blocking the cake in.
I got tired of dealing with the green on the seats.
I'll get back to that issue soon.
So I diverted myself and started on the cake.

Friday, March 15, 2013

Marriage Equality Painting Day 6

I'm not feeling great about the green. Two closest seats and back bench seat I changed the green and haven't touched the middle seats again. I want more of a grayish green. Just not mixing right. Hmmm.
Frustrating.
It seems right when I'm doing it and when I sit with it a while it feels a bit yucky.  At least I'm getting the shapes dialed in, I guess?
I know nobody gives a rats ass, but this is what I got for now to share. Better than nothing.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

I don't like dead animals but......



This taxidermy is hilarious. 

It was part of an art show called Laluzpalooza on Hollywood Blvd.



I think I might try to enter next year. It looks like a wonderfully wacky show.
Actually it has some big name hitters in it.



Friday, March 1, 2013

Marriage Equality painting Day 4


I didn't do much day 4, but I did paint on it. Basically the two windows closest to the front seats, and I darkened some areas. Better than nothing and it's all a process.  Kind of like my life right now.
Some days are more productive than others.

Have a good weekend. It's sunny and 85 here today.



Thursday, February 21, 2013

Marriage Equality painting day 2


The yellow orange you see is what is called toning the canvas. Giving the whole canvas one color besides the typical white that it comes. Usually using a complimentary color from the main colors that will be used in the piece helps unify the painting and give it richness and depth. This is one of my bigger pieces I've done and so this first go around is what I call blocking in. Basically making the shapes distinct  and tones dialed in. Then I will go back over it with more precise colors and details..
There is a very special thing I will be adding in several days that will bring more sense (at least in my mind) to the whole thing. I like to get the basics in and collage items in. Just my preference of how I do paintings.

What do you think it is now?

Friday, January 27, 2012

This is not a landscape


Above is the very beginning stages of one of my lastest pieces.
Most of my paintings start out this way and end up totally different than you would think.


Much like artist Magritte's famous paintings.
This piece below is called
Ceci n'est pas une pipe
Which translates into
This is not a pipe
He's trying to convey that this isn't actually a pipe, it's a painting of one.

Things aren't always what they appear, right?

If memory serves me right this is another one of his pieces. I'm too lazy to look up the title, but this is a piece about his mother whom I believe that he had either watched die or saw her drown or something of that nature.  I forget exactly...  but it was tragic.  Anyways, this is a representation of her.

What I'm getting to is not that I'm like Magritte by any means, but my paintings are usually representational and narrative and aren't what they appear to be.

My new piece at the top is a word project. I picked three words out of a hat that classmates of mine wrote down. I have to use two of those three words to make up a painting. 
My three words were 
buck
pregnant
light

I'll leave you with that and although this painting looks like one thing, I assure you it's not.
It might not be as representational, but it will be surreal and a play on words

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

One legged girl




These are done by a Berlin artist by the name of Goran Djurovic.

I'm am going to take the first step today and start painting after about 3 months.
I just started back with a new semester yesterday and so that gave me a little push.

I always like to look at other peoples work before I paint myself. 
It inspires me.
Painting can be very solitary. Most of the time it is.
I have a hard time sitting with myself lately.

It will probably be good for me.

At least that's what everybody tells me.



Wednesday, February 23, 2011

duck- duck goose


I love this artist, Pamela Wilson.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Does this look like somebody?


Painting by Mark Ryden.
I like this dude. Yes I know it's tiny. Just squint!
I would put up his sight but freakin blogger won't let me add a link.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Does sex sell?

My finished commissioned piece.
Oil on 3.5" x 3.5" birch block.