When worlds collide

I had to edit my blog, I'm not happy.

Can't a girl just put it all out there?

Be true and be safe.

Things were going along to well.

I was able to do and say what I wanted.

Share my creativity.

I separated the lives, so I can be me (if only for a bit).

I could share all facets.

I was happy.

Yep.

Not so much.

Trip Talk

On the way home from our weekend trip we talked about the different things that we had just encountered at the nude resort. It was so very interesting how people broke down into clicks. Not really in a bad way (not like high school), but I could see where everyone after being there for just a short time fell into a niche. There were the hardcore swingers, the soft swappers, the single ladies, the nudists, voyeurs and the exhibitionists. Then there were a handful of us that really didn't know where we fit in, but we were a part of this whole dynamic.

In our relationship it is new that we are talking to each other about the attraction to others. I don't think hubby realized that he isn't the only one looking at a pretty girl walking by. I think both sexes can be attractive and some more than others and not just always in a physical way.

We discussed whom we found to be nice or sexy or just sleazy. Also we talked about who we were attracted to, guy or girl. There were people we befriended, but not necessarily attracted to. Then there were others we did hang out with that we did find a certain comfort level/ attraction. It was actually kind of refreshing to me that we could put that out there with out a jealousy factor coming into play. It's just such a wonderment to me how some people are super nice and you would want them as a friend and others are as equal but there is an interaction that turns into an attraction. Does that make sense?

Please come home.

Why do we have to wear clothes?

We got back today after a weekend of nude frolicking. Never had been anywhere like this before and am ready to turn around and go back. It was a lifestyle nude resort, and oh my god...we had fun. This place was amazing. The big disappointment was, I took no pictures. They didn't allow cameras and we just were so immersed in the whole experience, we didn't care about anything else.

At first, it was all a little overwhelming. This resort wasn't posh, but it was clean and you kind of just didn't really care because of the whole vibe was so freeing. Nobody wore clothes, not even the staff and it took no time at all for us to shed our clothes and go lay out by the pool with about 30 other people. The music was pumping and fun was to be had. We just figured "What the Hell" and went for it. It took a little getting used to and right off the bat I had a girl trying to pick up on me. Whoaaa, a little uncomfortable, but I was able to tell her nicely that I wasn't in the" lifestyle" and I was just with my husband and that's the way we wanted to keep it. People were having sex in chairs around the pool and some left their room doors open for an easy view. There was no pressure and people were so nice and just down to earth. We actually met two couples that were there for the same reasons that we were and ending up going with them to dinner last night.

We fooled around at the poolside and also did leave our door open while having wild sex. We just felt so comfortable, actually people couldn't believe this was our first time to a place like this. Me being in a wheelchair didn't really phase them, which was so nice. I don't know if it is the fact that if you're at a place such as this with all different shapes and sizes, that there really isn't to much room for judgement.

Why are you here? You're handicapped. Why are you here? You have a little dick.

Just kidding.

It actually felt odd putting on clothes to come home today. Soon as I got home they came off.

School Girl

Back to school this week, so I'm off to get supplies. I have one night class (painting) and one day class (drawing). Actually my hubby has decided after all these years to try oil painting and to join the class. He's going to give his right brain a whirl for a while. He already has a great eye for things, so I think he should do well. This medium is just a brand new ball game for him and I'm just proud to see him go out of his box.

I have loved art from day one and just dabbled here and there. Not really finding what turned me on. Until about 5 years ago, we went to our community college art show. I fell in love with this painting that was so delicately detailed and executed to the tee. It was a painting of a quilt that had donuts on it, with a still life of real sprinkle donuts on top of it. I just about creamed my jeans in envy of such talent. This particular artists husband happened to be standing near by, and heard me raving about how I loved it and how I wanted to be able to do that. He said you can, just join our painting class. He went on to tell us how the teacher was wonderful and the people were so nice, almost like a family. I told him how I felt intimidated and didn't know if I would be good enough. He was very persistent, because I think he could tell how bad I wanted to do this.

That night we went home, and that's all I could talk about and decided that I would give it a try.

The rest is history, I took the beginning, intermediate, and advance classes and have continued taking the studio lab every semester. This class has a great group of regulars, and a teacher who happens to have become one of my closest friends is just awesome.

So, I continue going to school and have added a drawing class this semester. I've have found that niche', that for years I couldn't find.

Most importantly, this was a first of my stepping stones to independence. I was frozen in uncertainty most of my life. This was big, and probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Maybe I'll share more about that another time.

I fared well as result of the fair.

I had 2 art pieces in the fair. After the fair is over, if someone was interested in buying them they will give you Interest In Purchase Cards. I got 6 of total. I just sold one today to an art collector. A first for me.We went to his house to deliver the piece and Oh My God, I am so honored to be a part of his collection. This guy has some amazing artwork. Not a pretentious person at all, just loved art for the sake of loving art. He didn't seem concerned about what something was going to be worth or if the pieces match the furniture. But in some odd way it all worked. I just was in awe of everything. It was not your typical mass produced Thomas Kinkade or Wyland whales kind of shit. I should have taken pictures to share, but just believe me it was the coolest stuff.

Now the other piece, I have called and left a messages with the interested parties with no return calls yet. O'well I can't complain.

Need a little help.

Does anyone know why, when I click on my complete profile on the right side over there, and click on one or any of my interests, they come up with no profiles found. Does this happen when you do it, or just me? Please try it. It's been this way for a while now. I checked the blogger help section and came up with zip. I dunno.

In the beginning.

I made it a whole year!!!

This blog has been a cleanser, an eye opener, a portal for venting, an exploration of myself, and a friend maker.

Who knew???

Local Color

I'm not a huge movie goer and I when I do go I usually steer away from most main stream movies. They just don't do it for me.

We've been waiting for this certain movie to be released for quite sometime and it just was put off, and put off again. Finally "Local Color" has been released and it's only showing in one theater around us. It's about a young guy who has art running through his veins. He has to deal with a ignorant drunk father and many others around him that just don't get his passion. Until he meets an old Russian master painter who himself is a drinking, crotchety fellow. He sees this young mans talent and reluctantly takes him under his wing.

Like anything else when your familiar with a subject it seems easier to connect or want to connect. I really liked it and thought it had some substance behind it. Was it a block buster? No. I don't care, I recommend it anyways.

www.localcolormovie.com/

Wonderful Saturday Morning

Bedhead and Bird.

The final outcome of Whirly Bird

I believe it was back in June when I posted about Whirly Bird. I don't believe I shared the bottom pic before. This is where I got the idea to start a series of Whirly Bird. I had painted this cute little bird with a whirly beanie, on a 3"x 3" birch block my hubby made me. It got such a great response and everybody just fell in love, including me. He did sell, and that got me to thinking. I would like to make this little guy go on some adventures and see what I could pull off. This year is really the first time I have branched out doing kind of what I'd like to call "soft surreal" pieces. Not going from actual photos like I have always done. It makes it harder because it's all coming from your head. There are so many decisions to be made to make it believable and to get your point across.

Anyways, the top to pics are the finished product 10" X 20". I have another one on the way, it's in the beginning stages at the moment.

It's funny and weird , doing these paintings of Whirly Bird, I've come to realize a similarity to him and myself.

He's just a regular bird wanting to fly and have fun.

Suck it up, and put on your big girl panites.

We've been wanting to go on a vacation, as I've talked about in previous posts. Mexico was top on our list this summer, but we waited too long and now it's hurricane season and don't want to risk it ruining our vacation. We are going to put it of until next May. The weather is suppose to be great that time of year. I think we've resolved ourselves to little weekend getaways here and there.

Vegas kicked it off a couple weekends ago, and now we've booked a little nude resort in the dessert. We researched and felt pretty good about it. This would be our first time to go to one, and just want to experience it. This place is also a "lifestyle" friendly resort, which is okay with us, we know our boundaries and heard that others are respectful of yours.

Now here's where my insecurities come in. Hubby calls to make the reservation, asks about the availability, gives our info, then asks if we could have a downstairs room because his wife is in a wheelchair. First thing out of the ladies mouth is, "You do realize this is a "lifestyle" friendly resort? Hubby says, "yep". Then they proceed with credit card numbers. He said he could tell by her voice that the wheelchair issue threw her off.

So, one part of my mind says, "fuck them" I'm going to go enjoy myself just like everyone else. The other part says, people in wheelchairs don't go to places like this. You're not going to be treated the same and they don't want your kind there. They don't want to be uncomfortable and I might make them feel that way.

I feel very teary eyed right now and need to snap out of it. I will muster up the courage, because that's me.

Sake O'Mighty

I know everyone thinks they have the cutest dog, but this is the cutest dog in the world.

(of course cause he's my dog)

He has big Belgium waffle feet that you could put butter and syrup on and eat.