A little over a week ago I found out horrible news about a sweet friend. A blog friend that has turned into more than just a blog friend. A person who has really made a difference in my life. He has had a horrific (more than horrific) thing happen to him and his wife and I'm just beside myself. This tragedy happened almost 2 months ago and I didn't know because I had been wrapped up in my stupid shit and hadn't check in with him lately. I kick myself everyday for letting so much time go by.
I don't want to divuldge too much as I want to respect his privacy. I can't even grasp what has happened and my heart yearns everyday that he can find peace. I find myself just crying and shaking my head as to what in the world he will do. I wish I could be with him and try to be of some comfort and friendship. He lives about 11 hours away and I cannot really contact him.
I know his family doesn't know who myself or hubby are and don't know how to contact him. He is friends with hubby on Facebook and that is how I found out about everything. Now I wait and watch everyday for updates. His daughter updates his FB of his well being. We post messages along with many others and I don't know if he is has a computer available to him. Of course, don't want to cross paths of the blogs and family as it would be a little hard to explain where we met. Many of us bloggers see and say more to each other than our on families or friends. In someway I feel some of us actually know more about each other than the people closest to us. We tell or write about personal stuff and give advice and basically tell it how it is because it's a pretty much non judgemental place. A safe place...........if one of those exists?
My heart is broken for him. I have run through my blog the last couple days and cherish all his wit and funny comments and good advice. I really looked forward to seeing what he's put on his blog or what funny comment he put on mine. Or if he sent me a quick checking in email. I don't know if that will ever be the case again. I'm just hoping someday he can be happy again and realize there are people that love him and he is wanted and needed and cherished for so many things. That is a big hope and after what he's been through nobody would ever be the same. I don't know how one deals with what he has gone through?
You are constantly on my mind sweet friend. I hope you someday will see this and know I care deeply.
I want you to know I can try to be of help and a shoulder to lean on and if you need me I will come.
I love you Bob.