Sunday, March 4, 2012

Alive and kickin

I just don't have it in me to blog lately. I'm not quitting. I've just taken a break for a while. I have a lot on my plate emotionally which in return has an effect on me physically sometimes. I hate being a Debbie Downer and have issues that I just can't muster to write down.
I'm dealing with the loss of my mom and missing her presence tremendously. Hubby and I have run into some not so wonderful times. Which is weird because things just keep piling up. It isn't problems that are new, but just resurfacing at the wrong time and need to be addressed. We are continuing with life pretty well, but there is shit hovering over me that doesn't feel good. There is some estate people that are this weekend at my moms house pricing her things for an estate sale. That needs to be done, but feels yucky. I've been dealing with all kinds of paper work from her trust. Not really getting any of it............but I'm trying. My sister in law whom I'm close to has something wrong sick wise that the doctors can't figure out and it worries me. Plus, after the estate sale next weekend we will be having a general contractor come in and spruce up mom's house then it will go on the market.
Oh yeah, my bedroom is tore up. The lath and plaster is exposed and I'm at my wits end. I kind of have design plans but not fully. We started before we were prepared for what exactly going to happen. Hopefully this week we will have a dry wall guy come in an do his thing. This half ass planning is not like us.
So that is what is going on and why I haven't been blogging. I will be around and try to poke in when I can. Don't give up on me.


ChiTown Girl said...

I'll be here when you get back. :)

C said...

awww honey, be gentle with yourself... you just lost your mama.. it will take time to find a place to rest in your heart and soul.. but it WILL come.. until then, take one day at a time and what you can in that day and fuck everything else. i too will be here, and queer, whenst you return and feel like blaaaaggggging again. hugs to you, laroo, dont be blue, we love you.

would painting an abstract of how you feel right now, help at all? xoxoxoxox