Tuesday, February 7, 2012

I hit the wall

Woke up fine this morning. Thought nothing but having a regular day. After dealing with some things to do with my moms trust and just feeling like the dumbest person in the world. Different people telling me different things and not knowing the lingo or verbage off all this, I lost it.
Never experience anything quite like it. I can literally say I hit the wall. Don't get me wrong, I've dealt with my own shit and issues that have been pretty stressful and I've gotten overwhelmed. But today was different......I found myself just staring at a wall in my bedroom not knowing how much time had gone by and when I went to move, I was just frozen. When I finally did move, I didn't know if I was coming or going. I knew I was heading out to do something but couldn't even gather my thoughts to even grab my purse. All I could do was stare.
My friend called and the phone ringing kind of snapped me out of it. The minute I heard her voice I just lost it and started crying. Poor her.
To write it and hear myself talk about it sounds so menial, but it was scary.
The rest of the day has kind of been in slow motion.

1 comment:

JFBreak said...

Time heals. You'll get through this, just allow yourself to grieve as needed, and don't let it get you down.