Let me preface by saying that sex with my husband is great and we have fucked every which way. We've done it in public places, tied up, curtains open in hotel, once while another couple watched. I like rough sex, and the more I get it the more I want it. Not that it's not satisfying it just turns me into crazy sex woman.
That's where my issue comes into play. I never have truly masturbated the whole way through with my husband there. Maybe once, but was not fully comfortable. I want to feel free to do this without feeling shy or self conscience. I will get things going with myself, late at night when he's asleep or in the shower or when he leaves for work. I want to share this with him. I want to be ok if he were to walk in on me doing this. I feel like I would shut down because maybe I would make him feel like he wasn't doing me good enough. Or that it would somehow turn him off.
I've been so horny as of late and sometimes just feel like going into the bedroom and letting loose. Something always seems to inhibit me doing so.