Showing posts with label flashbacks. Show all posts
Showing posts with label flashbacks. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Bad Flashbacks

My friends have been telling me, "you need to get on Facebook". It just hasn't interested me and I feel like I already spend too much time here.
Hubby and I checked it out and he ended up signing up. I have not. I wanted to ponder it a bit.
Seeing how everyone from your past comes flying back to you in an instant doesn't wow me. It is actually quite disturbing. I felt myself being sucked in and down like a drain. My younger years were filled with deaths, operations, leg braces, back brace, being teased, not being able to do what others did, all while just trying to grow up. I had a mother that loved me deeply, but because of her own issues of her upbringing didn't know how to deal with any of it. I floundered to deal with life, and not many helped and some made it worse. Facebook for me just flooded back those hard times and I didn't like that feeling. I don't know if it is the people as much as the time frame. Little bit of the people and a lot of the time frame, I suppose.
I have come such a long way in acceptance of myself. Right know this is where I feel empowered and in control.