Thursday, April 5, 2012
I've officially turned into a bitch
Tonight is the last night to take the birth control pills and hopefully put me on course for not having my period when we go on vacation.
To describe what I have felt like for the last couple months is nearly impossible. A big pile of shit is the closest thing I can even get close to.
The hormones in the pill have taken my world and dumped it in the gutter. This has been the roller coaster ride from hell.
I've done everything I could to snap my shit out of it and I have had little luck and have officially turned into a bitch.
That happy go lucky gal that loves life and love and sex is no where to be found.
My husband, who happens to be one of the sweetest men in the world has put up with some crazy stuff and I am ashamed for my actions.
He wins an award for putting up with me for the last couple months. Holy Shit!
I felt so bad......last night we were in bed and he was leaning over to me and started kissing my waist and then up my shoulder and kind of growled and what was my reaction???? I came unglued and stood up and cringed. It just felt yucky. I felt sooooo bad. He was being so sweet and I acted that way. Good Gawd! This is not me! I love him. I love his touch. I love his everything and oh for fuck sakes I'm such a bitch!
I apologized, but how do you apologized for something as mean as that?
All this to go on an already paid for nude vacation. Is it worth it?
Endometrial Ablation, here I come!
When we get back from our trip I have scheduled myself for this procedure. Hopefully it will help.