An uncomfortable dream woke me this morning around 6:15am. My dreams scare me. It was about my mom, My mom and I are very tight and best of friends. I've had these type of dreams for years and they just come and hit me like a ton of bricks. They always involved watching her deteriorate or die or me not being able to help her at that desparate time. My mom calls me every morning at 7:30 and I always dream it is 8:00am and she hasn't called. I wake up in a sweat or crying because I know something has happened and what am I going to find. My mom is older and this could very easily happen. Weird thing is that I've had dreams or nightmares like this since I was a teenager. It never gets any easier. I feel like she has died many times over. I don't know what I will do without her when it really does happen.
So here I lay in bed with the computer on my chest looking at the time 7:01am and just hoping I have another day with her.
I sound like such a tortured soul...huh?
I'm a happy person, but I wear my heart on my sleeve and this is the place where I can get things out.