I choose not to sit with it. I will find something shiny and keep my head pointed in a different direction. I know it's wrong, but it hurts and I'm tired of hurting. I feel I haven't been nurtured when times seemed so low, but who I am is not that. That's why it is hard. It's easy to make excuses, avoid the situation, stay at a moderate level. Overseeing the situation and not being to involved is about all I can handle. When i let myself go any deeper I fall apart.
I am happy damn it, leave me alone..........I'm sorry you were left alone to go on. I really am.....I don't wish that upon anybody. Why must you act like you are owed. Why must you be so anal? Why are you so nieve? Why do make me feel this way. Where were you? Money doesn't buy happiness. What's with the tunnel vision? I know you have love. What happened to you in your life that made you feel so intitled? Yet sheltered and self centered and if not only on your terms?