Marriage Equality Painting Day 12

Added some scenery to the windows and I'm kinda just medium about it. It will probably get changed. I taped a couple on top to show what it will look like. they will be smaller though. This whole process is just trying things and sometimes liking it and other times not. The beauty of oils is that you can always paint over it.

It's getting closer though to what I want out of it.

I've been wanting to share some feelings and for the longest while now. 

I can't get the gumption ( i guess the word is) to put them down. I don't know if I'm ignoring them or just cant make sense or afraid to write. I need to settle myself and get back to letting it flow. It's just not coming very naturally. That's why I bore you with these day to day updates on my painting.

I suck

Not fishing for anything.

I just suck.

I feel like I can't say anything right.
The words I need to speak aren't coming out right.
My creatvity is zip.
I am freaking out about health issues in my family.
I feel lost.
I feel thrown under the bus.
I feel fat.

Other than that, I feel great.
Where's my Lelo?

Just had to write it out.
I know...... I need to suck it up princess .....Life isn't that bad.


I was going to change the post title, then though nah. All of your minds I know were expecting something sexual. ........sorry.