So anticipitory pain............
Mom needs a knee replacement. Sister just had one a little over a week ago. Sister was rare in the fact as she really hasn't had hardly any pain from it. Can't really be explained but she's doing great and that's just great.
Ok took mom to the doctors yesterday and he talked to her and I and basically her knee is bone on bone. Mind you, she is 84 and really has been healthy all her life and a real go getter. She's a trooper in pretty much everything she does. This year there has been a real decline and now this. I'm so freaked out. I'm so scared and doing everything I possibly can. I'm the one in charge emotionally and as much as I can physically, and it's only begun and I'm drained. I'm crying at the drop of a hat and just trying to pull myself together.
Anyways, when he was checking her knee out he touch her calf shin area and she crindged in pain and yelped pretty loud. Scared the shit out of me. He looked at me like, really? Then he squeezed moderately above her knee and she did about the same thing. He touched the middle of her knee and she had the same reaction but maybe a little less.
He sat her up gently after the examine and got down to her level and told her she is having anticipatory pain. He knows that her knee does hurt but he explained that he hardly touched her in areas that shouldn't hurt and she just about jumped out of her skin. When asked if it hurt she just kind of pussy footed around the subject and said I have old skin and couldn't explain her actions. He talked to us both and described how this kind of thing can really affect the outcome of this surgery. If she is this sensitive and over reactive and anticipative it could keep her from doing the work to recover from this major surgery.
She wants to go through with it and I don't think she gets the full grasp of it. She keeps pointing out that she's a fighter and is just going to push through it. There is more to it than that and she just doesn't see it. I've tried explaining several times and it doesn't register.
He told her there is a 50/50 chance of it being a successful outcome because of this. If I hadn't seen it with my own 2 eyes I wouldn't understand it. She scheduled the operation and all the classes and labs to go ahead with it right afterwards. Really, she's damned if she does and damned if she doesn't.
I have a call into his nurse asking if there is sometime of touch therapy to maybe desensitize her to things or some kind of pain management. I thought about that after I got home of course.
This next week I will be looking into rehab/ convalescent places for backup in case the hospital rehab beds get full at the time. You can't reserve them, so you have to have a plan B. My sister went home with a private nurse and that has worked for her. (she's a whole other story in herself)
But the doc wanted my mom to stay in a facility, I think because of her age and all. Oh holy shit, I hate those kinds of places and this is my sweet mom. I feel so bad I can't physically do more or I would take her home and help her myself if I could. She's done so much for me.
I feel so helpless
This is theraputic for me to vent.
Sorry, no fun and games and stupid stuff here today.