Then hubby starts acting strange (actually had been acting strange for a while) Finally, had enough of the lying eyes and sneaking around with the itouch and tilting it away from me every time I'd roll by. Of course he's hiding porn, this isn't new and actually seems to be his mantra. The thing is, I thought we had a pretty open marriage and we've talked about this. We've watched porn, and we have kind of made a pack that we would let the other person know if we were going online to look at this kind of stuff. Basically to just make it not seem like we don't need to hide, and we can be open with our sexuality. At certain points of our relationship, I've really felt slapped across the face by these same actions. It makes me feel unworthy, and flat out lied to. If you knew us personally, you would know the love we have for each other and the fun we have together. I don't feel like the typical married couple, we actually like each other. But this has been a sore spot for me for a long time. It's been monkey on my back for as long as I can remember. After something like this comes up, he pours out to me things that he's been holding in and shoving deep down. For instance, we've been through a few horrible deaths in the past couple years, and it haunts him. It haunts me also. How he was treated as a child, or that he wants to be a better person. It's all too much, I'm tired off it. I just want a open honest relationship. I'm not perfect by any means, but I don't lie. I want to be talked to straight forward and be listened to in the same manner. There is a glitch in our communications, a serious one.